Cat Toy

Warning: Good Omens Season 2 spoiler ahead. Tap the blurred text to reveal it…

The cat was playing with one of the toys you brought him tonight. Chasing it around, tossing it in the air and jumping after it… Just… Being a cat.

With a toy that you gave him. Us. Me.

Meanwhile, on my TV screen, Beelzebub was passing the ‘bigger-on-the-inside’ fly to Gabriel… and their fingers brushed against each other, gently… longer than strictly necessary to make the transfer… The timing felt… right. Somehow.

And it got me thinking of the things we've given each other over the past couple of years… the cat toys… some 3d printed trinkets… two Very Large bookshelves…

I think of you every single time the cat digs one of those toys out of wherever it is he hides them.

And… I mean… Bookshelves are bookshelves, but… I wonder where in your house they ended up? I have to admit, I was oddly titillated by the idea of them going into your bedroom, as you suggested might happen. As reminders of me go… they're pretty dull, but hard to ignore. But when he came to pick them up and I offered to help carry them up the stairs (an offer I knew would be refused… but I had to try!), I was informed they were unlikely to be going up the stairs at all. Ah, well.

But they're still in your house.

…

I didn't intentionally place that one cat toy in the background of that photo I posted a few weeks back, Thing One looking so very handsome in his tuxedo… But I did pick that photo out of a handful we took, because the toy was there. Those toys… they may not be six and a half feet tall, but they do turn up in the oddest of places. Little reminders of you randomly placed in my path by the chaos engine that is cat.

I kinda sorta love it, if I'm being honest.

I do sort of wonder sometimes… has that blue sweater accidentally found its way into your wash?

Ah, ⭐️… this little gigantic romance we're playing out… it's something special, isn't it? I was feeling wistful and missing you earlier this evening…

Who am I kidding, I still miss you… god… so, so much…

But just watching the cat bat that thing around… Well. It put a smile on my face.

Bonus points for it being the toy which I suppose must remind you of your daughter.

I love you, my hill by the lake. I really, really do. I know I'm not supposed to. I know it's probably hopeless, even though I'm sure now that you love me, too…

Doesn't matter. I do. I love you. And I refuse to believe, with all that's happened between us, with all of the long odds that have already been beaten, that there's not a future for us. It's there, for us to take.

We just have to take it.

…

Every day, it's a-gettin' closer…
goin' faster than a roller coaster…
Love like yours will surely come my way…
a-hey, a-hey, hey…

I love you, my hill by the lake.

Goodnight, my love. I hope I see you in your dreams.

Yours,
♒️

PS — Oh gosh, I can't wait to be able to turn the filters off… and leave them off. ⭐️ isn't the only one, my hill by the lake… Sweet dreams, my hill by the lake. I love you, my hill by the lake… I want to kiss you, my hill by the lake… God, how I want to just hold you, my hill by the lake… sigh…